Back to december

I found this old photo and I m still like it very much ! Suitable for my mood now ! :(

Today actually in good mood ! But one things happen totally spoil my day .

but I don't care anymore , my wrong again ? I waiting for you guys and finally I gastric . But still my false .

What the hell of this ?! Okay , I don't wanna to talk about this again .

Today evening I m walking back to home . and i so scared because I gastric and almost faint .

I really so scared I falls down on the street suddenly 

Luckily ! Thanks god :)  I m safe until home ! 

But a case was shocked me suddenly you know ? Almost accident just now ! I can't walking well , really so faint , and when i want pass the road by , a car drive very fast and I m in the middle of road .

Mind suddenly become blank ! Nothings much in my mind in that time except you ! 

And after a minute i saw the car and I just run very fast escape form that situation .

I scared , I really do 

I scared I have no more time to saw you , to meet you , to tell you .
I scared until I keep cry after I m home

Life was too short and We have to appreciate everything in our life :) 

I very scared ! I hope you can beside me in that time . But I'll know , that was only just a dream 

I was thinking about you , thinking about me , what we gonna be , and it was only just a dream .

Mr. K ! How are you ? Everything fine even-thought without me ? IMY badlyyyyy

I don't know  is whether when I think of you and remembered this song ? or i listen to this song and just will only thinking of you ? 

If really got miracle , I really hope can go back to those time , Yea , Its last year december .

Go back to december this song really damn suit me and full filled my mood inside . 

Taylor Swift - Back To December 

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier than ever
Small talk: work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why
Because the last time you saw me will still
burn in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,
standin' in front of you, sayin' I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom aint nothin' but missin' you,
wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleepin'
Stayin' up playin' back myself leavin'
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughin' from the passenger side and
I realized I loved you in the fall
Then the cold came, the dark days

when fear 

So this is me swallowing my pride,
standin' in front of you, sayin' I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom aint nothin' but missin' you,
wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

I go back to December all the time