Love Of My Life

Mr. K , You're the love of my life

Tears dropping down when i m typing now 

I thought times will bring away all the memory of you 

times will let me forget about you 

But actually NOT !

I thought forget you is a easy & simple things 

I didn't notice that you're so important to me 

I try to forget you with don't see your profile in facebook 

i try to forget you with ignore your picture in my phone

i try to forget you with not listening your sounds

But what to do ? 

Still same ? 

I am still damn missing you right now !

I feel more upset after i view your profile just now 

Seem like you got your dream girl which you wish to love, to protect 

I m so hurt when i saw that 

I hate that why that is not me ? =(

Besides that , i lost all the memory of yours in the phone

how sad i m ?

My friends try to cheer me up 

but i really cant stand for it 

I m just pretend when you guys with me

I m not strong enough actually 

i need someone shoulder =(

last time...

I really hope it is a last time i cry for you 

This is a lie !

I know it never be the last time 

but i m just keep hypnosis myself not to do that anymore 

Mr. K ! I miss you badlyyyyyyy !

Anybody save me ?!

LOL

 * 想你温柔的双臂会甜蜜的圈住谁？=（

Shopaholic ♥

♥ my new sun glasses 99 ~~~ HOHO

I am not alcoholic but a shopaholic 

I buy so many things recently 

cuz chinese new year sales bah 

so i was like crazy women 

buy a lots and a lots 

 lets intro some my precious boubuii to u all ♥

Hahahahaha

First : 

I bought a sunglasses 

actually i want buy since long time ago 

Finally You're mine ! Hiak hiak =P

Nice ? I like it much !!! ^^

Second : My new bag

Hoho , i bought it at merdeka mall
love it veryyyy much
i want buy a bag for long time already
and no one is suitable for me
finally i choose this =D

third : cosmetic . I bought a lots cosmetic recently
OMG
since when i need to make up everytimes ?
=(

that day my friends tell me that Stage were having super sales now
So many things are just RM18
huhu , just like the foundation i buy
* look up ! that is the foundation ;D

The original price is RM 90
and now is just RM 18 !!!!
so i just straight away buy it =] hiak hiak
actually i buy the eyeliner also
but forget to taking picture =..=


and i still buying a lots things lah
but i totally forget to take picture
that day i bought the mask via online
DIY mask =DDD
i try last night
i feel not bad
not cheap erhh , RM 40 just for 200g =(
Nevermind , i hope it is useful



BUY BUY BUY =='''

Quit

QUIT ?

don't worry 

i am not saying about quit blog

i want to quit NIGHT LIFE

i want to quit CLUB

can i do that ?

Sure & why not ?

i still remember last year i was party like hell everyday

But now i was like feel bored already

last few times i go 

i just sitting there do nothing 

OMG ! 1st time i feel club so bored :((((

& i promise someone i will go less

and i m happy cuz now you go less too 

stay at home isn't nice right ?

I hope you always take good care =)

Anyway, i want be the HOME -girl now 

lazy go out recently 

I m guai guai luiiiiii ! HOHO ♥

Finally !

Finally i had meet up my babe bibi sister !!!!!!

You know what ??

we are didn't meet up for around half year already

since the day she left us to KL for study 

Rawrrrrr ! IMY so much ♥

this two days keep outing with her 

miss all the moment spend with her

really miss her a lots =)

Seem she is founded her's right person in KL 

Blessing her all the best and hang fu all the time 

just now we hang out for whole afternoon

1st , i intro my friends to her 

which is summer & linda 

Xoxo :))

and spend whole afternoon in parkson 

went for movie 1st when we arrive parkson 

Homecoming ! ♥♥

Best movie ! =)

laugh & tear :)

i wish for the sweet chinese new year eve dinner like this =[

as in the movie , what they say is 

Even do can having family dinner everytimes , everywhere 

but having family dinner on chinese new year eve is very different meaning =)

The ticket for 4 of us

go to pizza hut after movie 

hey , i have been long time no enter to pizza hut 

summer & linda are so full cuz they having BIG MAC before the movie start 

so the pizza is just eat by we 2 ==

we order the new set pizza 

which look like chinese money @@

Look a like ? i don't think so =..=

My beloved mushroom soup ! 

I want add more & more cheese powder actually ==

but scared fat ==

Anyway, i cherish all the moment spend with my babe sister !

ILY ♥ mwaks !

And i wish to go esplanade with you tomorrow =(

Awwww !

我以为

我想念你了，你呢？

记忆里面已经完全没有我了吗？

头最近很痛

很像要爆炸了那样

太多事情要烦

友情，爱情，亲情

我曾经以为没有了爱情

我还是能活的好好的

因为我有一班很好的朋友包括你

但是原来我们的友情比我想像中的脆弱

轻易的就用钱可以解决的掉

虽然我们才认识一年多

但是我一直以来都把你当做哥哥一样

 你还记得照片里的那个时候吗？

我们笑的很灿烂

在你第二次庆祝生日的时候

我们合力为了要给你一个惊喜

可是，你现在为什么要做到这种程度？

你知道你这样做我们真的很心痛吗？

明明就是小事一件

为什么不能好好解决吗？？？

一定要弄到这种地步？

而且重点是我们根本没有那种意思

为什么你不跟我们解释呢？？？

是不是你对着我们连解释都不想？

我们一个两个为了这件事情而哭

你知道吗？

你不知道，因为你只是会对着我说

她在那里也哭的很惨

为什么你不珍惜我们的友情呢？

你骂我，我忍你

因为我知道你心情不好

我知道我一回嘴

我们就会连朋友都不是

可是到最后你还是要把场面弄到这么僵

这个是你送给我的最后一个礼物

伴随这个礼物而来的是

离别。

算了，一切都不需要再多说

你开心就好，这是你的选择

其次，是亲情

我在blog这里也说了很多次

我真的是很讨厌每次和我妈吵架

她总是蛮不讲理

说什么她那天要我请假陪她去买东西

然后我不要

什么我不要！

是我不能请这么多假期了

从这个月起，请假一次都要工钱了啊

还在那里怪我

你就不能体谅我一下吗？

我也不能一次过请假两天啊

星期三是一定要请假的

因为要回去学校彩排我们的手语表演

可是我告诉你不能够之后
你连一点体谅都没有

还要骂我

天啊！ 我现在是那里错？

而且我最不喜欢的是你每次都为了一些小事情和我吵！

我真的很不喜欢，你知道吗？ =(

都不知道我的妈妈怎么会这样子

我真的是越来越想快点念完书离开这里

去外面生活 :(

最后 =')是爱情

活了19年，我从来都没有男朋友

so what ? 我只是不想随便恋爱

你，是我第一个想为了你而改变我自己的人

虽然我知道我不是你的对象

但是我还是好想默默的，偷偷的

爱你

你知道吗？

从这个月开始，我们可以说是没有联络

有也是我主动找你

就算多么笨也知道你的意思了吧

但是，我还是放不下

甚至我还是会看回之前的信息，我们的聊天记录

但是从今天起！！！！

我们之间什么回忆也没有了 ='(

本来那些信息我都舍不得删除的

但是我的电话不知道什么事情！！！！！？

竟然自动的把我的信息都一一删除都完

我们之间唯一的一点甜蜜都不留给我 =[

真的是好伤心

我的电话啊！！！！！你到底怎么了？

竟然这样对待我 =[

我怀念的是无话不说

我怀念的争吵以后还是想要爱你的冲动

当初

我以为我们真的有机会

我以为我们会有以后

原来一切都只是梦一场

Hmm 

Easy to tear drop recently T.T

19/1

Yesterday was a super duper busy day 

The class start at 8:30 until 4:30 

is really taking long time

and when lunch time

we decide to go @ Mayland 

having our brunch 

Actually we want go 88 kopitiam 

But there is too many peoples 

It is so FULL !

then we faster decide go others place 

and finally going Mayland which beside our school

Silly Sayaka , early bird 

My First meal - Nasi lemak 

Same look with me XD

Shirley =)

Her's cheese omellet 

After class then go back shirley 's house cuz something happen =[

And wait her bath LOL.

She bath long time

then straight away go to school for rehearsal our performance

Sign language again 

Reach school around 7 pm 

Meet curtis & Chris 

they are going night class 

Waiting half hour for our lecturer come

and just start our rehearsal session 

You know ???  We are really last minute to prepare 

and we just practice in last two days 

cuz its too late to inform us need perform today morning = =

And after rehearsal then we go fetch yuen lyn for Dinner & movie

@ Miri cafe having dinner with / 4 others 

Nice menu design :)

And i am order mix grilled as my dinner

RM24 , so cheap ! 

Because it is so many piece  =='''

Look nice but actually not really nice at all .

LOL

and go movie afterward

Especially thanks to Mr.bear to help us buy the ticket 

If not the movie is almost fully sit

=='''

but so close with the screen 

make my eyes so tired 

 nice movie =)

i almost tear drop cuz i miss something in KL ><

KL style talking way =(

Stop it !

Am i look freaking Ugly after i tie up my fringe hair ??

Hmm

No idea 

But i like it much cuz feel fresh and no need to tidy up so much

so i just going out to everywhere with this silly look 

so what ? I just don't care

Back to my topic

WTF 

Nonstop raining for 4 days 

When the lord can stop crying ??

You know ? If continue raining again and again

I will be no more clothes to wear 

cuz no sunlight to dry up my clothes

Then how ?? sent to laundry to dry it up ?

i wish too =(

But seem like all fully booked !

I want to shout it out loud !!!!!

STOP THE RAIN PLEASE !

another stop it i wish to tell my mum

Seriously ! Can we stop argue ???!

i hate the feeling everyday keep quarrel

Can you think of my side ?

Diu lei !

i am hard to do also 

even you are mum 

but didn't mean you are right i everything you decide

can you please give me some respect ?

Fuck up my life !!!!

i hate it veryyyy much !

rude ?

So what ?

Dislike me ???

Click X and fuck off from my area =)

Life

Web cam ING

Long time no camwhore through my webcam already 

Life is just going on without him

And what to do anymore ?

Everyday repeat the same things

STUDY !  WORKING ! 

Yup =[

My life is just so BORED like hell .

LOL . Lord ,

can you give me some suprise in my life ?

Sincerely , I am not very satisfy with my life now 

How i wish i can faster finish study and flying outside 

Tears drop just now 

Really ! I can't pretend it anymore 

I m quite sad

Besides my smile you will never ever know how sad i am

BUT...

life is just problem coming & you have to solve it !

A millions words in my mind

But i just wish to say I.M.Y 

Hope for a better Tomorrow :)

Sweet Steamboat dinner

How was this Photo ?

Light make up today 

But Raining whole day spoil my mood

Finally i had no hanging out for buying my stuffs

Because as usually 

Raining Make me Moody 

and not suitable for going out shopping

so i just stay at home until my daddy calling me

Around 6'o clock 

My daddy came down from brunei and come pick me 

and then go fetch my GLGX member : dar & Summer

The weather is so freaking cold

So we decide to having steamboat dinner

So we straight away go @ 快可利

Nothings much to talk ! So guys, Enjoy the picture :)

Side dishes from the steamboat set 

 

 

All of them :D

The girl - Summer

The girl - Dar 

And Finally , Its Me ! Sayaka  ❤

Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee again !

Concentrate on the soup 

So HOT !

After we finish the steamboat set , is time to order some snack !

HAHAHAHAHA =P

But my dad is not allowed me to order so many 

Cuz I am getting fatter & fatter ! LOL.

finally i just order this one, dumpling 

It was so delicious ! Really !  :D

Hmm, This girl is gonna eat up all ??

No way  !!!!!

So Yummy !!!!! 

Thats all for the day 15/1/2011 

Grrrrrrr. I am very cold now

Its been raining 24 hours already != =

Anyone can give me a warm hug ? Wink *

i Hope is You

Its a quarter after one i am all alone and i need you now :'(

Worries

Opps ! Sorry i am not pretty as you see =)

Tonight a raining night

make me miss you so much

So cold , can i have your warm hug ? It was so sad because it is impossible

I don't know other girls which same age with me would have same worries as me or not

Don't know why i am worrying about many things

For my study :

This one i am quite worry about it !

because i am totally no idea since the third semester started

i really cannot understand what the lecturer talking about

and yet i need to resit my FA1 & microeconomics after chinese new year

Keep on worry and worry !  Sigh *

For my work :

I know, its the time to stop it

because i am getting tired & cant handle my school work nicely

unconsciously, I am already work for my boss around half year

Time passed so fast ! 

but I will feel so reluctant if I am going to resign

But what to do ? crash my school time schedule =(

For my future :

Worry x 100 times !

Sometimes i really don't dare to think about my future

what i am gonna do next ?

what lifestyle would i having after i graduate ?

Stay at miri or other places ?

Human resources management is really suitable for me or not ?

Haisss, no idea

For my family :

Hmm, this one ...

i wish don't everyday argue with my mum

Do you know that ? We are almost quarrel everyday and just because of little things

Mum, i don't want our relationship getting more worst

worry we will getting fight someday 

Can we stop the conflict ? LOL

Daddy, i know you love you

you do all you can for me

Thanks for everything you give me ! ♥
i know this year i am gonna spend a lots money
cuz i am going KL for the coming july , and chinese new year , i need buy a lots of things
Really need a lots money !!!!! Rawwwwwwr !
but you give all you can, you never say no when i am saying i wan spend money to my trip
You still say want give me go China after i graduate my diploma 
But daddy , i Tell you !!! I don't want go China =,=
Anyway, Thanks for my famliy give me so much support ! ILY :)


For friends :
Sincerely , i got a lots of friends in my life time 
But what i care is not the number of friends , is the heart which always caring me ♥ 
Thanks you guys so much , I heart you all a lots 
Lazy to write out all the names , but you guys are always in my heart 
Dear diana & babe miiya ! I really wish to meet up both of you in the coming july !
Lord, give us a chance please ! =)



And lastly, For you, Mr.K ♥
I hate the feeling when everytimes i close my eyes and i dreams you =(
Its too bad ! 
You know ??  Every morning when i wake up the first thing i do is missing you 
Do you heard that ! I am officially missing you  :'(
Recently, i am so worry about you 
always drink drank drunk ! Hmmph ! IHY !
Can you don't be so alcoholic ? 
Drink some is okay , but seem like u party like a rockstar and drink like a drunk ghost 
Weeeeeeee ! Stop it please 
I feel heartache when i know u doing that !
I still remember what you say before 
You say hope i can besides you to take care of you when you're drunk 
Hmm, i know that is no more chance for me to do that 
But however, can you promise me ? 
Take care of yourself more
Don't always hangover
Don't drink too much, alcohol is not water ==''' 
Its already a month that we had lost contact 
so its time to give up you ?
I really reluctant !  I can't forgot the sweet memory between us 
I never ever forget that is the sweet holidays for me because that time you always beside me :)
Anyone can telling me how to forget you ?  Haisssss
and see u so moody & Emo recently 
anythings happen ? I wish to share with you =(
But you don't even reply me my SMS 
How sad ?
Babyyy ! IMY so much !!!!!  but i think i already get out from your mind ='(
Big big SIGH !!!!



CNY is just around the corner .
But for me , i am not really got mood to celebrate it 
All peoples keep busy on buying new shirt , new skirt 
But i am just nothing 
No mood to shopping , no mood to buying =,=
But my dad is forcing me to buy it 
So, tomorrow is my shopping day -..-
Daddy say giving me money mah , then i sure buy a lots of things !

 Look like after cry ? teeheee ! 
Actually i am not lah :))))
Good night world 
& Happy birthday to my girl- friend !
Stella hii ming ming ! Happy birthday . Old lw XD 

特别

我深爱过你的特别，所以不后悔

会心碎的拥抱，适合浅尝不适合深深的沉醉　

对于你，我总是觉得你是最特别的
可能是因为我在你身上有很多的第一次吧
第一次的心动
第一次让男生看到我的脆弱
第一次让你听见我的泪

奋不顾身？
或许是的
我曾经想为了你不顾自己的明天
不顾自己的健康
可是，
没关系，爱一个人，奋不顾身
喔｀　辛苦也觉得好幸福
我甘心＝）我愿意，因为你值得


也许是我太大意
低估了你在我心中的地位
其实你，
无声无息的涌进我心底
不小心爱上你　沉醉又入迷
谁愿意来唤醒


我虽然伤心
但是我会尽力让自己过的很好，　不让你担心
因为我想看见你的笑容，所以我会一直很好 =)
虽然我不知道自己伪装的笑容
可以维持多久　但是我相信我会一直笑下去
也许到了我不能维持的那一天
我会选择逃走　默默的逃离

眼泪，从你离开的那一天起
不曾停过，　不曾断过
很多个孤单的夜晚我都在重复的想同一个问题
：今晚，你想念的人是不是我

无可否认的，你在我心中一直都在
就在那最特别的角落
但是现在...............
 我只想把曾经刻骨铭心的都淡忘




也许，短暂的沉默也不错
暂时的忧郁很适合我

厌倦

终于，都2011了

又有多久没有更新了？

开学了

忙了

累了

有时真的很厌倦现在的生活

每天读书

读书之后就做工

没有任何的乐趣可言

但是厌倦又能够怎样

还不是这样过

真的好想快点念完书去看看外面的世界

去体验不一样的生活

我已经过的很显了

每天这样一成不变的生活

迷惑？


对于很多事情我都很迷惑
或许我现在告诉自己不要知道的太多会比较好
当一个笨笨的我
多好啊
我不知道自己为什么这么爱你
你知道吗？
当我听到关于你的歌
记起关于你的回忆
我都会忍不住落泪




后悔吗？曾经
我告诉自己后悔当初认识你
否则我现在不会为了你肝肠寸断
但是或许是缘分？或许是时机
我们最后还是认识了
如果时光能够倒流
我想，我还是会选择认识你然后爱上你


开学了，我以为自己会忙到没有时间去想你
原来不是
回忆还是会无时无刻提醒我
该是时候想你了
特别在夜深人静的时候
望着你的照片，欲语还休
我多想你可以在我想你的时候，打电话过来，告诉我你也在想我



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发觉她的文字很棒！、
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